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Thursday, February 11, 2010

I Still Take Pictures

I do.  I really do.  Only not so avidly as I used to.  And sometimes I long to go on a walk somewhere, by myself, no kids, no obligations, and just take pictures of whatever catches my fancy.  I need to fall in love with photography again because somewhere between first trimester nausea, home renovations, and cranky, tantrum-throwing kids, photography became a chore, a duty, a drudgery.  And I miss loving it.  I miss reaching for my camera fifty times a day to catch this expression or that funny posture.  Thankfully, I feel the passion returning, but while my spirit is willing, my body protests.  My chubby little self can't keep up with my inspiration.  How can I be at once a congealed and growing mass of fat and feel as though I'm stretched thinner and skinnier than I've ever been?  I need my body to reflect my spirit in order to feel whole and complete.

Of course, it might be that what I actually need most is just to DO rather than wistfully DREAM.  Dust off the camera and charge up the batteries, get on the treadmill and fight the fat - move, act, DO - not just be.  I need to live, not just exist.  I need to MAKE myself the gorgeous starlet I am in my head.  :D

Okay, GREAT!  It worked.  My pep talk worked.  See ya later!  I'm goin' to get my camera.  Hasta la vista, Baby.

And here are a couple of gems as proof that my pointer finger still gets a rare workout now and then:

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{A Bug in my blankets!}

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{Buddha at Cabrillo Lighthouse}

3 comments:

The Chief said...

I think you are beautiful just the way you are.

Amber and The Boys said...

Hey hey! That's the "golden ratio" or something or other (what was it called?) isn't it? Took a photography comp. class. :) I have to say, I am always hard on myself when it comes to photography because I have seen what you can do. You are amazing.

Lindsey said...

You do need to rediscover your passion for photography because you are truly talented at it. Seriously. I am not just saying that. If I wanted to offer up a fake compliment, I would say something like "yum, spinach shakes sound fantastic." Because, sorry, but to me they do not sound yummy. Hmmmmm...what else can I ramble on about here in the comment section of your blog? Oh, I know. I wish to point out that you still have not posted any pregnancy pics and I want to see you! Everyone loves a pregnant lady. And The Chief is right. One of my favorite things about you is that you always seem completely content in your own skin. You are beautiful and I hereby request that you not waste another second of this life thinking you aren't. Ok? :) Love ya! Miss the Bagels - hope to see you all soon.

L